Rie chats crap // v.1

People turn out to be gay. In a bad way.
Not in the sexual way.
I like gays.
Uhm. I'm talking about gay-people as in asshole buttwipe retard ignorant selfish pieces of shit.

Yes. Those sorta people.

My brother's let me down. SO badly. I'm angry. Disappointed. Ashamed. Lost.
My faith and trust in him has completely gone. My pride's been hurt. My feelings have no meaning to him. Nor my mom's. Nor my dad's. No-one else's but his own.

He's let everyone down bu not standing behind his words. For not thinking about anyone except his own advantage.

Basically, he was meant to stay at our dad's place for a couple of nights. Was meant to be there yesterday. I was supposed to go over for one night because he didn't wanna spend both nights there on his own.
Day before yesterday he went to stay at his friend's in the same town. Called me next day, saying he's not going to dad's. Hell, I hate going there sometimes. But I said alright, instead of me spending a nice saturday with my mom, who I see so fucking rarely... I went to Saarijärvi (town where my dad lives). Was supposed to fucking meet my brother, first in the afternoon so we could go to dad's together. He fucking post-poned. Then, around 6 or 7pm. POST-PONED to 8.30pm.
My mom took me there for 8.30pm, driving 120km just so that my brother doesn't have to go to dad's alone. He. Was. Not. There.
Dad turns up. I have to go with them. Instead of being with mom. We try calling Patrik, see where the fuck he is. No answer. We wait. We try to call. We wait.
And wait.
And wait.
And you get the idea.
Turns out he went fucking DRINKING.

No. I'm gonna fucking stop this update there. Cba. I might just smash this screen.
I'm gonna go walkies in the woods and rain. Kick some trees. Throw stones at bears if I see them.

Oh. And I think my laptop's giving up on life.
EXCELLENT fucking timing, with my studies starting in less than a month.

I. Am. So. Fucked.

"today's the day I feel like..."

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