Rather. Fucking. Annoyed.
So, I decided to finally start working on my character-profiles. Taken me over 3 years, but now I'm gonna do it.
I just have this one teeny little annoying problem; their fucking images that I've drawn and coloured, are on my OLD laptop's HD, and because that laptop decided to retire months ago... I have to colour them again. FFS. FFS. FUCKING FFS.
On another note... Gantz, the anime I'm currently wading through, is... pretty boring. Don't know if I cba to watch the remaining 9 eps.
And something else that annoys me, actually more than annoys: waiting for my student loan, and study support money-thing. No cigarettes, Jyväskylä WC ( world champion, not water closet :P ) Rally this weekend, and my friend and her boyfriend supposedly coming over and staying the night... and I've no money.
FFS again.
Argh.
x
Tuesday, July 28, 2009 3:01 PM
Sunday, July 26, 2009 2:58 PM
Am I seriously now being controlled by smile.jpg?
Haha. Fucking psychological shit, that's what it is. Now everytime I mention smile.jpg, or smile.dog, I'll be thinking it's controlling me and telling me to spread the word. Just like it's said to do on this site and article
People take it really seriously though. There are no articles nor images on wikipedia, everything's been deleted. Pretty much the same when Googled. There aren't even that many Photoshopped versions around; it's like Mr. L said in his article, it's somewhat a www-legend.
What's even more psychological about it, is that after reading the story about it, people will relate bad things that happen to them, to the image itself. THAT's why it's so effective. The stories and rumours you hear and read are also boosting the effect.
At the end of it, it is just an image. If you saw only the image and knew nothing more, that'd be just that. But the stories, then seeing the image, that's what fucks with people's heads.
... and now it's doing it to me too. Haha. Spread the word, smile.jpg loves you.
x
Ps. I wonder how long it'll be before this post gets wiped off the face of the www. Lmao.
Saturday, July 25, 2009 1:00 AM
I seriously need a life.
If I had one, I wouldn't get so overworked over some retarded little asswipe, being all immature and thinking he is so fucking high, above everyone else. Downright fucking elitist. I HATE elitists.
Yeees, I'm on about Kumbychat again. But honestly. It's so fucking stupid.
... I'M fucking stupid too, for even bothering. Lemme shoot myself in the foot the next time I think about ranting over such an idiotic thing.
No. Actually. I just realised. He feels insecure because he didn't get the joke of people calling me "Rietard" (c'moon, laugh, it's funny), and so he takes his issues out on me.
Fucking 17-year old. Jesusfuck.
//end Kumbyrant.
I feel kinda sad.
And repressed.
All my sarcastic chuckles and amused lifts of an eyebrow at various stupid people are all in vain. I've no-one there to share them with me. Ha.
It's funny.
Wait.
No it's not.
It's sad. In a bad way. In a pathetic way.
Yes. I am pathetic.
Totally.
These walls are closing in on me again. My fear of the outdoors, or more like my fear of leaving my flat conflicts with the supressing feeling I have when I'm at home. It's getting worse. Feels like my head's exploding. Or I am exploding, then being pieced back together, and exploding and...
fuck.
Shut up.
See? Won't be long before I go crazy for real.
x
If I had one, I wouldn't get so overworked over some retarded little asswipe, being all immature and thinking he is so fucking high, above everyone else. Downright fucking elitist. I HATE elitists.
Yeees, I'm on about Kumbychat again. But honestly. It's so fucking stupid.
... I'M fucking stupid too, for even bothering. Lemme shoot myself in the foot the next time I think about ranting over such an idiotic thing.
No. Actually. I just realised. He feels insecure because he didn't get the joke of people calling me "Rietard" (c'moon, laugh, it's funny), and so he takes his issues out on me.
Fucking 17-year old. Jesusfuck.
//end Kumbyrant.
I feel kinda sad.
And repressed.
All my sarcastic chuckles and amused lifts of an eyebrow at various stupid people are all in vain. I've no-one there to share them with me. Ha.
It's funny.
Wait.
No it's not.
It's sad. In a bad way. In a pathetic way.
Yes. I am pathetic.
Totally.
These walls are closing in on me again. My fear of the outdoors, or more like my fear of leaving my flat conflicts with the supressing feeling I have when I'm at home. It's getting worse. Feels like my head's exploding. Or I am exploding, then being pieced back together, and exploding and...
fuck.
Shut up.
See? Won't be long before I go crazy for real.
x
Sunday, July 12, 2009 2:23 PM
People turn out to be gay. In a bad way.
Not in the sexual way.
I like gays.
Uhm. I'm talking about gay-people as in asshole buttwipe retard ignorant selfish pieces of shit.
Yes. Those sorta people.
My brother's let me down. SO badly. I'm angry. Disappointed. Ashamed. Lost.
My faith and trust in him has completely gone. My pride's been hurt. My feelings have no meaning to him. Nor my mom's. Nor my dad's. No-one else's but his own.
He's let everyone down bu not standing behind his words. For not thinking about anyone except his own advantage.
Basically, he was meant to stay at our dad's place for a couple of nights. Was meant to be there yesterday. I was supposed to go over for one night because he didn't wanna spend both nights there on his own.
Day before yesterday he went to stay at his friend's in the same town. Called me next day, saying he's not going to dad's. Hell, I hate going there sometimes. But I said alright, instead of me spending a nice saturday with my mom, who I see so fucking rarely... I went to Saarijärvi (town where my dad lives). Was supposed to fucking meet my brother, first in the afternoon so we could go to dad's together. He fucking post-poned. Then, around 6 or 7pm. POST-PONED to 8.30pm.
My mom took me there for 8.30pm, driving 120km just so that my brother doesn't have to go to dad's alone. He. Was. Not. There.
Dad turns up. I have to go with them. Instead of being with mom. We try calling Patrik, see where the fuck he is. No answer. We wait. We try to call. We wait.
And wait.
And wait.
And you get the idea.
Turns out he went fucking DRINKING.
No. I'm gonna fucking stop this update there. Cba. I might just smash this screen.
I'm gonna go walkies in the woods and rain. Kick some trees. Throw stones at bears if I see them.
Oh. And I think my laptop's giving up on life.
EXCELLENT fucking timing, with my studies starting in less than a month.
I. Am. So. Fucked.
"today's the day I feel like..."
x
Not in the sexual way.
I like gays.
Uhm. I'm talking about gay-people as in asshole buttwipe retard ignorant selfish pieces of shit.
Yes. Those sorta people.
My brother's let me down. SO badly. I'm angry. Disappointed. Ashamed. Lost.
My faith and trust in him has completely gone. My pride's been hurt. My feelings have no meaning to him. Nor my mom's. Nor my dad's. No-one else's but his own.
He's let everyone down bu not standing behind his words. For not thinking about anyone except his own advantage.
Basically, he was meant to stay at our dad's place for a couple of nights. Was meant to be there yesterday. I was supposed to go over for one night because he didn't wanna spend both nights there on his own.
Day before yesterday he went to stay at his friend's in the same town. Called me next day, saying he's not going to dad's. Hell, I hate going there sometimes. But I said alright, instead of me spending a nice saturday with my mom, who I see so fucking rarely... I went to Saarijärvi (town where my dad lives). Was supposed to fucking meet my brother, first in the afternoon so we could go to dad's together. He fucking post-poned. Then, around 6 or 7pm. POST-PONED to 8.30pm.
My mom took me there for 8.30pm, driving 120km just so that my brother doesn't have to go to dad's alone. He. Was. Not. There.
Dad turns up. I have to go with them. Instead of being with mom. We try calling Patrik, see where the fuck he is. No answer. We wait. We try to call. We wait.
And wait.
And wait.
And you get the idea.
Turns out he went fucking DRINKING.
No. I'm gonna fucking stop this update there. Cba. I might just smash this screen.
I'm gonna go walkies in the woods and rain. Kick some trees. Throw stones at bears if I see them.
Oh. And I think my laptop's giving up on life.
EXCELLENT fucking timing, with my studies starting in less than a month.
I. Am. So. Fucked.
"today's the day I feel like..."
x
Tuesday, July 7, 2009 10:30 PM
... just because I can.
Not done by me, they belong to FB application Mafia Wars, by Zynga.
<3 it. They look so goooood *w*
6:23 PM
REC was mad. Not in a good wy, neccessarily. Way too fast-paced for me. Imho.
And what the uck, I can finally get some sense into my fashionista-self. (Psh, as if I'd follow).
I have a full body-length mirror on my wall, whoop whoop. Cost me only 9 euros.
And my paintings are up as well. Love love love. Thank you, dad and Antti. So so so much.
(you wouldn't believe, but the paintings and the mirror are attached with double-sided tape rofls. hoping it holds haha)
Hmmhmm. Going to my dad's again, for one night, tomorrow. There's free summerholidayers' dance @ Kukonhiekka
(curiously, it translates to "Rooster's Sand", no idea. No. Don't ask), which I'm hoping we're all going. Besides, I owe a dance to someone. :P Now you're all going wtf, Rie, DANCING?
Yes, this is the favourite summer thing to do in Finland, these kinda dances. And stop thinking dirty. Nothing like that :P Well, favourite of the older people at least. But yeah. Uhm. Lost my thread of thought... hmm.
REALLY, cannot wait until thursday, mom and brother are finally here :D Haven't seen them in half a year, which doesn't actually SOUND that long... but it is. >__>
Uhm... damn fuck! -flail- Oh, and FAIL too. My thoughts keep flying outta my ears.
On a side-note, drawing rainbow-vomiting robots is way fun. :D
-cough-
Okay, I'm gonna start watching Gantz now.
"underground e youkoso tsuitekina"
x
And what the uck, I can finally get some sense into my fashionista-self. (Psh, as if I'd follow).
I have a full body-length mirror on my wall, whoop whoop. Cost me only 9 euros.
And my paintings are up as well. Love love love. Thank you, dad and Antti. So so so much.
(you wouldn't believe, but the paintings and the mirror are attached with double-sided tape rofls. hoping it holds haha)
Hmmhmm. Going to my dad's again, for one night, tomorrow. There's free summerholidayers' dance @ Kukonhiekka
(curiously, it translates to "Rooster's Sand", no idea. No. Don't ask), which I'm hoping we're all going. Besides, I owe a dance to someone. :P Now you're all going wtf, Rie, DANCING?
Yes, this is the favourite summer thing to do in Finland, these kinda dances. And stop thinking dirty. Nothing like that :P Well, favourite of the older people at least. But yeah. Uhm. Lost my thread of thought... hmm.
REALLY, cannot wait until thursday, mom and brother are finally here :D Haven't seen them in half a year, which doesn't actually SOUND that long... but it is. >__>
Uhm... damn fuck! -flail- Oh, and FAIL too. My thoughts keep flying outta my ears.
On a side-note, drawing rainbow-vomiting robots is way fun. :D
-cough-
Okay, I'm gonna start watching Gantz now.
"underground e youkoso tsuitekina"
x
Monday, July 6, 2009 5:03 PM
It's like... REC.
Right.
First ep was insanely fast-paced. What the hell?
And... rainbow-vomiting robots, and turtles snapping at your toes for making them lose the goddamn game.
And chicken-pineapple-aura blue cheese pizza. Which is just.... yum. But two days in a row, could I?
Idkrite, insane right now. I wanna get a tattoo with my mom. :D
Fuck of an update. Don't ask, you really don't want to know. Robots. FTW.
"stairs to the 7th, running up to heaven"
x
Right.
First ep was insanely fast-paced. What the hell?
And... rainbow-vomiting robots, and turtles snapping at your toes for making them lose the goddamn game.
And chicken-pineapple-aura blue cheese pizza. Which is just.... yum. But two days in a row, could I?
Idkrite, insane right now. I wanna get a tattoo with my mom. :D
Fuck of an update. Don't ask, you really don't want to know. Robots. FTW.
"stairs to the 7th, running up to heaven"
x
Wednesday, July 1, 2009 6:52 PM
--- Listening to: Girugämesh - Fujin Ai ---
Something's gonna explode in a minute. That something's gonna be Rie's head.
Attack mode.
I was in such a good mood this morning. It wasn't too hot when I woke up, there was good music on TV for once, and doing my hair was so quick and stress free.
On my way to the bus stop, I got an icelolly, and damn it was nice to eat cos the sun was starting to annoy me. I get to the bus stop, and.... 1 hour or so later, no bus. Where the hell was #28?? Irritated now, cos I wanted to be in town already, I go back to the shopping center and asked for the bus timetables at the info.
#28 has decided not to run during the summer from my end to town. W... T... F...?! Fuming now, I leg it to the other bus stop, and to my relief the #25K is standing there. I get on and ask when we going, cos it was just standing there. 5 minutes. Okay, awesome. I sit on the very front seat, opposite of what I usually do, the bus driver---ah sorry, steering wheel operator--- was so nice and chatting to me all the way to town. He was even cracking jokes about it being so hot he has to see grannies with their skirts up to their ears. I LOLed the whole way.
Once in town, I go straight to see what's on sale in Anttila. I walked out with a toaster. Another LOL, it's my first xD
Deciding there's nothing more for me in town, I go to my bus stop, and finding a nice shady spot, sit on my ass and delve into Japan POP that I found in my postbox this morning. Pissed off that I managed to somehow miss Girugämesh playing at Tavastia, but they're gonna make an appearance at the Tuska-fest (tuska = pain) soon. No chance in hell I'll be able to go, but... well, I can only hope they'll be back next year.
The bus finally came, and what... 10 minute wait again. Argh. I entertained myself with more Japan POP articles, and LOLing in my mind to three funny things I saw earlier:
1) a man in his 30s with a flaking tribal tattoo on his arm. One of those you can get that last a few years. It just looked funny, bits were falling off here and there
2) a van with the work uke on the side xDDD
3) two ladies n their 60s - 70s driving a pink beetle convertible and looking like teenagers
Uhm- cough- Amused easily, I get it, yes yes..
So, I get to Palokka (where I live), and go pick up my prescription. Fucking 3 months worth of insulin is alot of boxes, and with the toaster to carry, it wasn't nice in the heat. I decided to go and have a coffee at Mummin Pullapuoti. I like the woman who works there... Pirjo. She's awesomesaucely nice 8D I bought 2 vanilla danish' to take home and enjoy later xD I must've sat there for over an hour, chatting with her and this other lady who I met there last week. I also go free fill-ups on my coffee ^^
Finally deciding it's time to head homeward, I visited the library to pick up a copy of "Of Mice and Men". Haven't read that since secondary school, and never in finnish, so I'm curious to see how it compares. It's much less to read than I remembered...
Soooo I take it slow walking to Euromarket. I had to get floor and window cleaning equipment, a washing basket and the essential food stuff. I somehow manage to drag it all to the check-out, but faced a dilemma once I'd paid. How the hell was I supposed to get them home?
32 cm x 46 cm x 49.5 cm, 45 litres
So. I drag them to a bench away from the check-outs, because I was kinda crowding the place. And I ponder. I think. I exhaust my brain trying to figure it out. I ended up putting all the food stuff (including 4.5 litres of drinks) and the cleaning mop for my bathroom in the basket, and carry the rest in my other hand. I had to stop a total of 12 times on the way home which usually takes me about 10-15 minutes to walk. Half-way I nearly knocked myself out when I slammed my palm to my forehead. Cos I had realised that wearing a bandana around your wrist as an accessory can also be very useful. I tied it through the holes, and so made a handle. I am so clever it sickens me.
And now I am home. Aaaahh. About to pay my internet and cutlery-set bills. Ugh.
Anyways. That was a pointless update, that I wanted to share. Cos I need my vents and rants. Deal kids. :P
"naita no wa boku datta"
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