It should'nt fucking surprise me that people are assholes. Really, most people have their head so far up their ass that they could not object to my statement.
It really pisses me off. Someone agreed to help today, and then surprise surprise, they turned out to be a complete fucking twat of an ass. Oh, not to mention they ate their promise. More like shoved it back up their ass, actually.
Guessed I''m preeeeeeeeeeeeeetty angry right now? No? This person, they basically decided not to help me after all because they (I hate to use this word soooo much) fancy me. And after I answered their question if I'm in a relationship with anyone (kinda complicated, but kinda yes), their completely fucking ignored my request for help, which by the way had been agreed on earlier already.
So yes. People can be real asses, and I've lost most of my faith and trust.
As a result to this, my health really deteriorated today. I got home around 10:30pm, because believe it or not I had been helping this guy pack his stuff. So I get home, and pretty much collapse on the fucking sofa 'cos I've zero energy. I hadn't eaten today, and I've pretty much no food left. (Probably guessed it, I had asked this guy to lend me some money until the 1st of June)
Soooo, I'm on the sofa, and have no energy at all. I have this fucking burning at the tip of my throat, and fee nauseous because of it. I hovered between conscious and unconscious for an hour or so. Then I decided, right, I'm gonn get to bed now.
That's when I threw up. Nice throwing up just water and stomach acids, by the way.
Soooo... I might have to go to hospital. I'm gonna have to stay up for now, just monitor myself. If I throw up again, I'm calling an ambulance.
But fuck.
Really fucking hard to find people you can trust nowadays, ne?
"i'm just your toy, a puppet on a string"
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